from my sweet Sophie. I have noticed some stress in my girls this week... so many things to face- first time they've been seperated from each other (in seperate classes), first week of First Grade (full day now), and just started a car pool, so they get picked up by my friend after school. Huge changes, are they ready for all of this? The schools really encourage seperating twins, but this is a different situation. My girls need each other! The first day went well, then they started saying they wish they were in their sisters class, and at night they would tell me how long school was and they didn't like it, or they wanted to go back to Mr. Matt's class (1/2 day kindergarten)... pretty normal for the big jump into first grade.
They have always enjoyed school, and never had problems going except for this day, when they were so scared and young, a couple of years ago. I know they still have fears and seperation anxieties and it's starting to show this week. I'm sure it will take some time, but my heart goes out to them.
Today I got a phone call from Jan, the nice secretary. Sophie was in the office in tears worried about her lunch. Last night Josh turned 15, so with his pool party ending pretty late, I didn't get the kids lunches made and told them I'd bring them in this morning. I had just finished making them when the secretary called and let me talk to Sophie who was crying- she asked about her lunch, her dad, her sister, and when she could come home with me. It's not just a lunch issue, I'm sure this was the last straw that she couldn't handle and had a little melt down. Sophie and Sage hardley ever cry, so when they do, I know something's wrong.
I hurried the lunch over to her and gave her a big hug, she told me she didn't like school and I tickled her and told her she'll like it soon. I was hoping she'd get through today, and re-coop for the week-end, but it was too much. It breaks my heart to see her cry, I know this will be tough, even as resilient as they both are. I cried most of the way home, thinking about what they must be going through, hoping and praying that they have loving, sensitive teachers that can help them (Sophie's teacher is wonderful, she was right there with her and said it broke her heart when they did the lunch count and Sophie started crying, but I'm not so sure about Sage's teacher. With the little I've seen, she seems very strict and controlling, very different then what she's ever had). I hope it will be good in the long run, having them seperated. I plan to keep a close eye on everything and help out in their classes, and enjoy every minute I have with them when they are home, but I hate to see them suffer like this. If you have any insight or ideas, please share. Paul thinks we should put them back together in the same class... I'm torn.